Presence

Sitting on a chair alone in a room full of people, not bothered by anything or anyone, no one to disturb the stream of thoughts flowing or rather storming my mind since mine is one of the most restless minds. Not noticing anyone around, nobody entering or leaving the room can break in the flow. But suddenly he enters the room and the flow is broken, mind is blank, heartbeat raised and eyes looking in his direction only. Feeling conscious, trying to avoid to look at him but can't help stealing a look every now and then, even though there's a strange fear that he may see me looking at him. He has all my attention but I need his. Quite frequently, he caught me looking at him when I pretended to be lost in thoughts with a straight face and breath held before getting back to my writing. It's like a connection between us that takes me where he is already and moves me in his direction without me having to know about his whereabouts. Will he ever read my face and realize how much I want him and how insanely his presence affects me!! It's crazy how his presence makes me feel. It's too strong and flawless that I don't have to find him but his presence finds me! Sigh!!

Little happiness

Have you ever done something that gave you a little happiness! Anything which  gave you immense happiness but was as little as going for a walk, listening to a melody or may be just planting a tree! Last month I got my THAT moment! I was really happy to have got to be a part of a friend's 'little happiness'. In everybody's life, there comes a day when you feel the basic happiness, coming from within, emanating from every aspect of  your being, every pore of your body. I got to accompany my friend and his family in planting a tree in their father's memory. A man who loved nature like mother and plants and trees as his own children; who had nurtured an Ashoka tree in front of his house guarding it against the whole world. An otherwise peaceful person, fought everyone to save the tree. How that moment of being with his children, planting his favorite tree, in the holy environment of a nearby gurdwara, made me feel like a part of their family. And it is this little happiness that makes you feel whole and at the same time question yourself if you really deserve all this in your life. THAT little moment is as depressing as it is elevating. So, never regret anything lost or done in your life and move on to better things, better deeds, taking previous ones as lessons and willing to make a difference in someone's life.