Years ago, I found out that the guy I'm going out with writes too (there were a lot many other things he did to amaze me!). I started reading his blog and write ups, in fact I started following it. And then I realized that I'm falling in love with him because of his writing and he is indeed amazing with words. I think that is how he rolled me in at first! ;)
He kept writing and I continued reading, kept waiting for his new posts, emails with new write ups.
He used to inspire me to write but then I was never good with words or narration. I always messed up by saying things differently than what was meant initially. So, I never bothered my keyboard or pen! Also, I was afraid to give words to my thoughts, to share what was my opinion about things; fearing that my deepest and darkest feelings might just come out, fearing people may not agree with me, may not approve of my ideas or may not accept me in that light. I simply held on to my status quo of being the just-not-intellectual and can't-have-an-opinion. I couldn't portray myself in words just how people see me, total mess! Is this why we have introvert people around us!? Those who don't talk much, don't share much and agree with what-ever is said around them, never putting their thoughts on the table. May be that's where the title of my blog came from!!
One day a random thought came to my mind that I need a blog of my own for girls, which took him by surprise. Very calmly, he suggested that I should first start writing a regular blog before coming up with the conceptual one. I hesitated and was really apprehensive about writing at all initially. It took me quite a long time to bring myself together and get to work.
So, there I took the big step, pulled up my socks and started writing on paper whenever and wherever I got some time for myself. Initially it took me long to write about anything but gradually I started enjoying it, even the time it was taking to write something. I savor my time spent in writing with my stream of thoughts.
At the moment I have about 12 posts in my drafts; things I'm working on for quite a long time but nothing completed to my satisfaction yet. I drafted the title of this post about more than a year back but today I
finally write my thoughts wholly about it and put it to you.
Now, it is all about putting my heart out, trying to sort out all the mess going on in my mind. Be carefree and careless about what anyone thinks!
Feels kinda good to realize that I am writing, seriously! Even if someone out there finds it naive. What matters the most is what I'm doing, makes me feel great! Isn't it why we do anything of everything we do!?
